Marriage

What is the meaning of marriage???? Why divorce must happen in this marriage relation???Where is wrong and why??? All this while I only see or hear it's happened to someone who not related to me...but now it's happened to someone who are very close to me, and I feel the hurt too, moreover they have 5 kids, so what will happen to them? Are going to separate mean half follow the mother and another half follow the father?

Really pity to the kids, they know nothing and it is not their fault at all. I dont understand why this man still request to his wife to have second wife...really idiot, y cant he think bout his kids..they are still small, y he wanna do tis unfare things to his own blood???? And for the wife I know she will feel really hurt until deep inside her heart, 10 years relation's will be end soon with tears of his wife and his kids..

But the thing that I dont understant, y the husband dont want to let her go (divorce) with reason still love the wife, stupid!!!!!!!! if you love y wanna do all this, dont u know tat ur wife and ur kids will suffer mental and heart....

New Image after Raya

It has been long time I didnt update my blog, really busy with work and life....hehehehe

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to everybody...my raya tis year was great, we went back to Kulim Kedah, is my first raya with hubby family's (heheheehe)...so early in the morning we have to wait for our turn to shower, imagine there is only 2 bathroom to share with 15 peoples...oh no!!!!!somemore the water so small, hehehee.....so I let my hubby to shower first for him to go Sembahyang Raya, I didnt go cause have to jaga my hero.

After they come back, as usual we bermaaf-maafan, then taking our first breakfast after one month fasting, the rendang and ketupat daun palas.......yummmmmy...very delicious and sedap sangat...then we start visit all the relative...from morning until nite. And our last destination is Perlis.....huh...luckily Danish ok, really tired and full with all the foods...finally we get nasi at my sis in law house, lauk kampung...but i didnt eat much cse to full already...same goes to second raya and third raya...busy go here and there...we wanted to go to Langkawi but my Danish is not well, so we cancel our programe...but I'm really enjoy my this raya with my family..

What happened to our world?

This morning when I drive to work, as usual I will on the radio cse Danish like to hear songs and when the DJ's read a news for today I was shock!!!! A boy 16 years old raped the girl who only 10 years old. Oh! My God, what happened!!!Sigh!!!!How could they small boys do the criminal!!!I dont know what to say...how the family react when their son involve with this serious matter. Who should we blame? And what happened to the gal future??? How she going to accept this? And the boy's is so brave, he's not only raped that gal but he hurt the mother's (gal) when she wanna protect the daughter. How come small boy's can turn up until like that. He's only 16. I'm really pity to gal, serious...poor thing to her, she still small and how is she now, I wonder???? Who fault is this happened? Really sad when I heard all this case and nowadays a lots of case happened with involve our teenagers. Imagine if they really grow up, what will happen???Think!!!! And at the same time I looked up to Danish, how the mother's feel when people come and tell tat ur boy's had rap a gal. Sure the mother feel very down and really sad. I must raise Danish with good lesson and cannot let him involve/see negative things. Let's raise our kids with love and care.

Amy Mastura - Cinta

My son Danish really love tis song so much, whenever he listnen to this song he'll dance and he look so happy..last weekend we went to Ampcorp Mall for their 10 years anniversary...so there's a lots of programe and games. But the most excited part is they invite Amy Mastura for show. We reach there bout 12 noon. The whtr was so hot. But I already promise to Danish, to show him the singer for the his favourite song's. We waited there, go shopping, lunch and finally bout 4pm the show begin. First artis was Dayang, she's not bad...then only Amy Mastura. Danish really happy the best part is Amy did hug Danish...(hehehehe) i got video on that...will keep it and let Danish see...luv u son...

Me as Mama

Someone who always complaint that why I didnt update my blog, being busy for this few months. Not only working but as a mother's to Danish. Anyway I'm happy with it, although I'm not rest enough as long as all the things done on schedule. Now only know its really hard to raise your own kid's. Really!!!no joke. Especially when ur kid fall sick, of course we will feel worried and we have to monitor them until they get well. My son Danish got asthma. With our whether now, he's often fall sick, he's easy to get flu, cough and fever and drag to asthma. I always pray to God to protect my Danish. Everymonth we have to go to SJMC for his checkup. Dr. Ali always give support to us, he said asthma there is no medicine to void it, it will gone itself but dont know when. I got read an article bout this sickness. It it sensative with perfume, cat, the baby always cry also one of the reason,grass and etc. There is one time the asthma attack him and he totaly week until cant even hold his own bottle, just lying on my bed and his eyes so tired...his hand and leg was very cold. I was so scared tat time. Me and Krul faster bring him to the nearest specialist. On the way to the clinic Danish just hold my hand and without my control I cried and I pray to God please don't take him from me..he's my life, my soul, my lover and everything

Hard Time

Hem...my car give me problem again, sigh!!!!actually we wanted to sell the car for so long but we r not allowed to do tat, tis car got a lots of memories, from both of us couple until we get Danish...everyting with tis car...but y la u keep give me problem...so tension la myself!!!wat should I do...????anyway I dont have picture of my car...maybe next time I will put here...hehehe

My Hubby

Mohd Khairul Faiza...tis man really make my whole life happy and meaningfull. I still remember the first time tat we met, he's shy actually. But I dont know, the first time I see him I fall in luv with him (dont know which part) very deep. Then we start going out together, do a lots of crazy things together...hehehe, still remember until today. Our relationship was very wonderful and not even one year we get marriage. All my buddy jump (shock!!!!!). He's purpose me and I agree with my heart. He's very kind, very loving, very understanding, very gentleman, very soft spoken, but not open minded...hahahah(but he look like one) a bit kolot la my hubby...(B, when u read tis dont angry ok) I really luv him so much although now he's getting fat...hehehe (again he kena smash)...just to say I'm glad to be yours....thanks for guide me in everthing, thanks for accept me as myself, thanks for the pattient, thanks for the lovely day, thanks for being my Hubby....

Bad Day

Today really bad day...tis morning after I fetch my son. some idiot dont know which year he re-new his license ...my way straight and he wanna reverse, of course he got to wait until I pass him...but dont know y so stupid!!!!!!!!! uncle!!!!!!!my car already half and u still wanna reverse...really show how idiot r u!!!! somemore the wife and the gang make noise pulak....then we argue la, the wife keep saying y I dind stop...huh???already half body of car and y ur husband still wanna reverse....fucking idiot,somemore dont wanna pay me or wat ever but keep said they r rite...then I just ignore them la, dont to ask for money to fix my car cse they willing to give.

Nowadays, a lots of life gone just like tat, so I dont want the same things happened to me or my family. The new case was happened at Puchong, pity to the mother had died for nothing, the case same like me, accident and argue, end up life gone....wat happened to people at tis era????everyday if we watch new sure confirm murder case, I wonder whtr those bad people who done all this, where is their heart and brain???? Y they have to kill people for small reason, it is not worth it to die just for the sick of dying!!!!for the small missunderstanding!!!!! Really feel not safe to live, always feel scare..and yet no one has taken any action!!!!!!!

NO ones Know

How should I express my feeling here, frustated with someone who really close with me but yet we had argue again and again. Where is wrong????Damn!!!!!I dont like it this situation. How could she act like tat?

Wat else she wanna me to do? Izit not enough? Y she never use her brain to think before she talk it out, y cant she see from her own eyes wat am I doing? Y I have to feel tat she's fucking stupid? Y she have to forced me to hated her so much. Damn!!!!!!!I dont like today...really suck...

Happy Mother's Days

The feeling of being a mother's is very wonderful, u can see from ur own eyes from the time they come out, they cried, they laugh, they know how to hug us, they know how to kiss us, they know how to luv us, at the moment they need our attention we will so touch, at the moment when the fall sick, we will feel worried, really wonderful feeling, we see them grow...luv u Danish, Najwa, Dhia, Haikal, Shameer, Daniel, Kakak...all of them..luv u Mak, luv u Mama...

Danish

My lovely boy...i dunno wat is wrong with him...i realize after 7 months above untill now, he always get sick. Always have to go and see doc...and always have to force him to drink the medicine which i hate most too...ask a lots of people but they said is normal to raise a baby boy until of someone who close with me suggest to punch his earing and of course i cant do tat, sometimes I also lost my temper to him and actually I did try to control it as good i can. But it really taugh...but I do love him more then everyone does, I miss to see his round face...really. My feeling is deepest sad see him like him like tat..every month atleast 2-3 times to see doc and he have to take medicine...untill when i wonder?????The baby sister always tell me, maybe when he small always get sick but after he grow up everyting will fine...hopefully....luv u Danish...

Happy Life

My life now more happier then last time, more meaningfull...thanks Hubby...

thanks Danish..really luv both of u from the bottom of my heart..Thanks to Allah cse give me all the happiness which i can say with any word...although Danish always get sick and im sad to see him sick, but at least outside there there is so many kids who suffer with the serious sickness..once again thanks again to Allah..